Half Pipes

Did you know that the first half-pipe was discovered by a handful of kids in San Diego?  Apparently they would trek out to an old water site right outside the city, boards in hand and skate these big ol' split pipes. They found that starting at the top and skating down helped them gather speed and momentum, allowing them to try new and riskier tricks. Like ollies and 360's and every kind of "flip" you can imagine. There's apparently even one called the nightmare flip. Fun fact. Thanks, Wikipedia.

I think God designed life to be like a half pipe.

Don't laugh. Or ya know do, because it sounds totally corny.

I have been trying to think of a way to describe this season of mine and Gigantor's life but I have lacked the words. I started a post about being empty, but that didn't sound right. So I erased it and wrote one about being overwhelmed. But we're not really overwhelmed, or underwhelmed.

Then I watched a "vine" about this kid barreling down a half pipe and trying tricks, only to fail miserably. On his face. And I thought, "That's it- our life is one big scary fast half-pipe"

I feel the wind of change in me, and I can feel myself barreling down the half pipe. I'm gaining speed and trying new tricks. Maybe no flips or kicks but still risky none the less. Like setting up appointments with adoption agencies and filling out paper work and trying to convince these professionals that I am in fact a responsible adult, while simultaneously not freaking out because I just spilled hot coffee all over my dog and my tan couch.

Like I said, I got tricks.

And that fear of failure, the one of inadequacy and doubt and falling flat on my face? It's evaporating.

So, before this gets any more ridiculous or I start humming "wind beneath my wings" I will leave you with this.

What would you do if you weren't limited by fear?
What tricks are you supposed to be throwing?

Because fear is never just a little thing, it's the very thing that will stop us from doing the good works He's set before us. It's the difference between obedience and sacrifice. It's the seemingly small acts of denial or insecurity. It's the number one tool the enemy will use because well, it works.

Don't excuse yourself by saying, 

"Look we didn't know"

for God understands all hearts 

and he sees you.
He who guards your 

soul knows you knew.

He will repay all people 

as their actions deserve.
Proverbs 24:12